Today has certainly been one of those days. The day where you wake up and everything is against you from word go. The day where all you want to do is crawl back into bed and sleep until the next morning but you can’t because you have to be an adult…and sometimes being an adult sucks!
Let me run you though today ( warning this is very long winded, feel free to skip to the next paragraph if in a hurry )…Woke up, had the sore throat from hell, stripped Ted’s bed, changed Ted, he then threw up on himself, changed him again, double load of washing, Ted spilt breakfast all down himself, changed him again, took car to be serviced, went and did the shopping, had a call from the garage…two new tyres needed, carried on shopping, another call…all wiper blades need replacing, picked car up, £200 down, argued with the man who was really rude to me, got home, changed a million nappies as I have a poorly bear again, took him to the doctors, he screamed the waiting room down, received nasty remarks from the old lady in the waiting room for having a crying child, saw the doctor, Ted screamed a lot again, doctor was rude to me and made me out to be clueless, left the doctors, got in the car, cried over the whole fiasco, got home, made dinner, Ted bathed and into bed, finally sat down!
Today has certainly been one of those days where you just want to run back to your mum and dad and have them do everything, and to be honest, I would be lying if I said I haven’t got them to help me because I have renounced my adult title until tomorrow morning. Adulthood and Motherhood can both be really hard. Yes being a Mum is the most rewarding job in the word and I love being a Mama, but there are days when you feel completely deflated and question everything you do. The worst of those days though are the ones when your little one is poorly and they look to you for help but all you can do is offer calpol and cuddles until they are better. There is no worse feeling than being able to do no more to help your child. It’s awful. You blame yourself, think you are doing something wrong and become overwhelmed with guilt. It can become really hard to see that you are doing everything you can, when in fact you are doing more than enough!
Yup. Adulthood is definitely a change from the days when our biggest worry was waking up first at a sleepover. Our weeks which were once filled with flashing velcro shoes, dairylee dunkers and Pokemon cards have now been replaced with bills, piles of washing and work. Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish there was a way to transport back to that simple mindset, even if just for a few minutes. It’s days like today that it is really important to take a step back and remember that everyone has crap days and no one is superhuman, we simply can’t do and control everything. There will be loads of days when you just want to run and hide from reality, when you feel like you are failing at this ‘being an adult’ malakey, but actually you aren’t doing as badly as you think. And chances are tomorrow will be far better. If not then go make yourself the most epic kiddy packed lunch, watch your favourite old cartoons and leave the washing up for another time. There is nothing wrong with reliving your youth for the day!